Day 4

Technically, I missed today's reading b/c its past midnight, but it was for a good occasion. Happy birthday SHIN!! don't worry, your secret is safe with me...

Nov 4: Gen 18-20
One thing I need to understand more is how to really fear God. There's some dialogue in chapter 18 between Abraham, Sarah, and God that is somewhat amusing but also something we should listen to seriously. The dialogue is when God again promises a son to Abraham and Sarah within a year. Sarah listens to the conversation from outside the tent and laughs to herself when she hears of the promise. God asks Abraham why Sarah is laughing, also rhetorically asking "Is anything too hard for the Lord?" Sarah then becomes afraid and lies and says "I did not laugh." God just comes back with, "Yes, you did laugh." This was kinda funny to me at first. God is pretty much shutting her up for lying to him and does so with ease. But the more I thought about it, the more I realized I've been in Sarah's shoes many many times too. We think we can trick God and ourselves sometimes but what can we really hide from him? To me, he doesn't seem amused at that conversation. Sarah questions God's authority, laughs and shrugs it off and then tops it off by lying to him. God has answered so many of my prayers and yet I still question him about things as well. It's so hard to just completely trust but I pray that God can grant me yet another one of my prayer requests to do just that.